Praying

I've been a little conflicted when praying lately.

Most of my prayers are about Dave and his job situation.  I will admit there are times when I beg God to present Dave with a job here, so we can stay and go about life as usual.  Because, well, I love life here.

The bible says to, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God."  (Philippians 4:6)

I'm taking that as permission to let Him know what it is that I would like to see happen, what I want him to orchestrate happening.

But the other side of it is this.  Jesus prayed to God, "...not My will, but Yours, be done."  (Luke 22:42)  We know that He was praying about what He was about to endure, which was His crucifixion.

So, I am to pray for God's will.  Maybe it is God's will for us to uproot our family from everything we've know for many years and transplant us to another part of the country for us to start all over again.  Maybe He has a glorious plan for us beyond what we can even imagine.  So, if I continue to simply beg to stay here, I could have that prayer answered and miss out on something amazing.

See my conflict?

But now, let's look right before and right after Jesus' prayer to God.  He does pray for what He wants.  He asks  for God to "take this cup away from Me."  He does not want to go through what He knows is about to happen.  He prays HARD that He does not have to.  So hard, in fact, that it says that "His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground."  He REALLY did not want what was about to happen to happen.

I guess what I ought to do is marry the two prayers.  I make known to God what I really want (as if He doesn't already know), but I also honestly, humbly pray not my will, but Yours be done.  I think maybe that attitude is part of the "be anxious for nothing" part?

Besides truth be told, His will is what I should ultimately seek and truly want anyway.

Just keepin' it real.